technically speaking, its sunday now.
so, happy sunday to all. hmmm. what is sunday to you? a rest day? the eve of monday? a hangover of clubbin on sat night? or sabbath? to me, sunday is God's day. its funny how we want God in our lives every single day and we only remember His goodness and we only give one day in our lives to Him - sunday. and yet He loves us so. indeed, i serve an amazing God (:

i want nothing, but to be a servant.
servant of God that is. i want to serve. but why do people make service/serving an obligation? i dont know how to put it, sometimes, i feel as though im being tied by a string. and im obligated to serve in the ministry men wants me to serve. today, im covering my ears. i shall serve where my Master calls. if youre a believer, you'll agree with me that our God is a gracious God. amen?

let me speak my mind alright?
if i dont feel comfortable in a church/cell-group, i find it terribly hard to serve, worship and instead, i play catchin with God. scold me for church hopping. i cant answer myself which church im in currently. why do men link 'holy' christians to those who serve weekly? yes, you can serve. just dont serve blindly.

ok, you get it, dont you?
today's lantern festival celebration in mrtang's church is fun. ok, maybe the atmosphere was kinda still and erm, wrong? but yeah, its a different feel there. at grace (read: my church), events like these will be a hundred percent success. but in a church where everyone is rich (read: dirt rich), it makes me wonder if we are worshipping our BMWs, 12million dollar bungalows, and rags that are made branded by prada, gucci or even lv.

i want a change of environment.
i want an environment where i can fit in comfortably, a place where i will not be ashamed of the 2bucks that i have in my wallet. i want a place where everyone is down to earth. i dont need a place that is skyhigh... all im asking is a place where i can worship freely. the purpose of going to church is to worship. and not a contest of the most expensive car...

im sorry for the lengthy post.
i just felt like voicing out my feelings. i cant quite explain what im feeling inside, but yeah. school is starting soon, and its goin to be a hell of a semester. ohmymama, im getting so damn sick of school. so damn sick of seeing retarded fakers, so tired of damn backstabbers like you. go sing your song of misery to someone else, by then, the world would have turned against you, you're so damn pathetic, just leave me alone for the rest of my school years. i want nothing to do with you. from today forth, ive wiped you out of my memory. off you go!

mrtang, youve got an awesome voice!
and i'll be a shakist as long as you sing! you rock, superstar! loves! (: okies, im off to watch my "gambling god" show!