love, joy, dance;

Thursday, June 29, 2006

im havin a retarded conversation with iggy.
plans to burn down np because of its stupid assignments.
we will drive cargo trucks.
lol.
signs of us goin crazy.
goodness gracious.
we're highly stressed people.
tsk tsk tsk!
we hate school.
boo!

i actually set my alarm at 9pm instead of 9am this mornin.
-growls.
as a result, i woke up at 12, when my lesson starts at 11.
im so darn impressed with my stupidity!

peacock called.
and i decided to go down to school to support his ice-cream stall.
tah dah!
we went for tarot card readin.
we both kpo, so asked about our LOVE life.
the girl said im havin problems managin my finances.
(which i wont deny! its like GSS now)
LOL!

she goes on to say that im too timid to do anything about my love life.
and she blabbered somethin abt the impt person in my life.
she says,
the both of us tend to just stay in a corner to see each other,
and hope that we're doin fine.
so the tarot card predicted that "nothin is gonna happen between you two" this way.
shrugs.
case closed.
cheryl gave me a pat on my shoulder,
and says, "haiyo! never mind what the card says lah!"
tarot cards are fuckin honest huh?

so cheryl, cock and i went for kickboxin trainin.
hahaha, i TRIED to study there.
(ok, so i did manage to study..)
cheryl and i talked alot.
from boyfriends, to boyfriends, to boyfriends.
HAHAHA!
gawd, i love her so! (:
then peacock started to "fight".
madness. HE'S DAMN FIERCE LAH!
-covers eyes-
but i must say, he's a power fighter.
-laughs.

dinner with cheryl, cock, kenneth and iggy.
we went to kap.
haiyo. we are such pigs.
i had a double cheeseburger, fries, nuggets, apple dippers and ice tea.
-BURP
talked alot, laughed alot.
cheryl and i figured that guys dont understand our joke.
hahahaha.

fm test tmr..
thats it man.
im gonna panic my ass off.
i hate math!
-growls

assessment went well yday.
though some parts were badly screwed up.
oh wells.
I PASSED (:
and i learnt alot of stuff.
life is about the journey, not the destination.

miss pam at work.
look at my adorable children hard at work!
-smiles!

see my very cool jo vial?
(on the far left)
i love jo vial lotsss!
i love my children!

the LOVE lunch.
our mentor actually gave us lunch, cause i complained that im gonna be hungry.
we even have cold barley!
how sweet! (:

my art work.
i cut it out with a cookie cutter.
i thought it looks damn cute (:

oh yes. im VERY happy for 2 reasons today.
1) LPC's meetin on sat.
i miss everyone of you.
and im glad to have you all in my life (:

2) KRISTINE KWOK'S COMIN BACK!
oh gawd. my bestie's comin back!
i miss her SOOOO much!
-smiles happily!-

something for my soul, somewhere

Sunday, June 25, 2006

URGH!
so many assignments.
but just no mood for it.
i hate it!
-whines

damn england.
cant you just score one more?
and now i lose money.
dammit.
money fly fly.
BOOO!

something for my soul, somewhere

Saturday, June 24, 2006

it was a hell of a weekend.
ok. my weekend started on thursday.
clubbing galore.
just the way i like it.
-laughs.

thursday.
ATTICA with p'cock and purple.
supposedly with pei and qiang,
but both last minute cant make it.
hmm,
my nightmare started after we mixed our alcohol.
uh. i got high, together with purple.
some angmoh idiots were dancing like mad,
so we moved away,
and had more to drink.

nightmare started after we left the club.
i shant elaborate.
im not goin to talk about it.
it send shivers down my spine.
all i know is,
im gonna club only with people i trust,
and no matter what happenes,
im goin to stick close to them.
we will not go our seperate ways.

friday.
zouk with the girls:
faz, ping and gen.
technically speakin,
gen was with her colleagues.
but we robbed her alot of times.

went to tcc with ping and faz,
cause it was TOO early to club.
ping bought faz 4 different types of cake,
just to celebrate her birthday :)
had losta things to munch, and drink.
we even ate fries!

went back to club,
gen said sherman's in the club too.
HAHA.
so, yeah, danced and danced and danced.
walked in and out of phuture.
music only got MUCH better around 2am.

oh, didn't mention that i was high for both nights.
here's the alcohol i had for both nights.
1 whisky 7up, 1 corona, 2 vodka ribena, 1 tequila pop, 2 vodka lime, 1 jug long island tea, 1 flamin lamborghini.
shared some here and there,
stole some more here and there.
gawd.
im turning into an alcohol beast.

faz stayed over.
(i told ya i'll blog about this)
and she's a murderous sleeper.
we were sleepin,
suddenly, she grabbed mr chipmunk,
stretched out her hands,
and threw him on the floor.
looked and me, and went back to sleep.
you murderer!
boooooo!

ok, we went for best prata again.
omg.
its yummylicious!
ilove the teh tarik!
and everything there!
:)

oh, i want to cut my hair.
right. out of point.
here are some photos of the past two nights.
nono, here are the BEST photos.
:)

purple and pam. i guess we were already high when we took this.

peacock and pam. wooots! "money come come!!" you're sure my best friend!

yes, 100% high. i shouldnt have left that night. gonna stick to you next time. we shall protect one another :) LOVES!

ping, pam, faz, gen. -growls. why is my face the reddest when gen drank more?

in the toilet. faz likes the lighting there. so. tahdah!

ahh, though we look mad here, i say this picture is much nicer :)

so says the plate.. "best prata" and i dont give you an option to disagree.

bahh, she emo lah. her prata took forever to arrive. you chipmunk muderer!

and so, the yummylicious prata has arrived!

i hereby declare this the best teh tarik in the world! :)

two very, very, VERY satisfied customers :)

look at all our pratas. i'll chomp down everything! -evil laugh

my goodness, she's concentratin so hard on her prata. i think i was talkin to myself throughout the meal.

gone in 60 seconds. see the big one? that's the banana prata. fazzie's dessert!

this is where all the good food is - the wonderful kitchen!

4 slices of cake! yummy!

ok, i'm VERY hungry now.
must be all the prata photos.
but, im craving for maggie mee.
hahahaha.
yes. i shant blog anymore.
till tomorrow,
have a beautiful sunday ;)

something for my soul, somewhere

Thursday, June 22, 2006

"i paid thousands for my school fees"

-laughs
that's why we should be in school more often,
and use its resources.
just like what im doing today.

goin to attica tonight.
gawd, please dont let it be an underage party.
underaged parties are so damn crowded and boring.
i think its gonna be a ngeeann atmosphere tonight.
crap.
whats with me and ngeeann?

oh, went for NPidol yesterday.
wheee, i think pink's great!
and razif and caili.
ha, its just different when singers sing from their heart instead of their lungs.

i think such competitions are boring now.
cause i have no reason to be there, anymore.

had the best prata in the world last night.
its big, its crispy, and its fuckin nice.
(opps. its to emphasize how darn good it is)
right faz?
absolutely love the milo dinosaur and the banana prata.
sedap!
-smiles sweetly

Attempt 2: do DLE project in school.
Results: failed
Reason: Sims2, internet and blog
dammit.
aye ting, faz and pam, job well done.

burnt my ass last night.
holland vs argentina - draw.
dammit.
may tonight's match be good.

i have an urge to change my friendster profile.

-gwad, she is sure pretty..
no wonder i love her so.

-she must be amazed at my beauty

something for my soul, somewhere

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

"why, you cynical fellow.
expel your skeptical thoughts.
for my love for expression will not vanish.
i am the way to the fountain of tranquility,
and my words shall overflow thy mouth.
let's embrace the serenity of expression again.
and this passion shall be nothing like empty vessels,
but,
voices that no ear can resist.
repent!
you evil one.
bow to your majesty."
-unknown
(must be some man...)

an angry poet is an expressive poet.
hahahaha.
what do you think?

went to pris's house today.
planned to do DLE,
ting, faz and i ended up playin SIM2.
meet the puma family.
hahaha,
i love the house we build.
oh yes,
ILOVEcheatcodes.
-winks!

whee, currently waitin for the next match to start.
that's goin to be 3am.
and its only 1.02am now.
-yawns.
all for the SAKE of money.
money money money.
-sigh
i ought to be ashamed.
HAHA.

watched HOUSEofWAX with faz.
omg,
we screamed our dinner out.
its so damn sadistic,
it totally freaked us out.
my goodness,
i doubt we'll play with wax for the next few years.
-burrrr!

ok, i'll see if i wanna blog later.
i have NO inspiration to do anything.
not even work.
-GROWLS

something for my soul, somewhere

Monday, June 19, 2006

omg.
i swear CARS is a good show.
i laughed my guts out watching it.
throughout the movie,
i think i said,
"so sweet!", "so cute!"
at least a million times.
and there's a guy with a terrible laughter sittin next to me.
lookin at him makes me wanna laugh.
haha.

yes, its a good show with a beautiful storyline.
i'm so glad we didnt watch silent hill.
prolly scream my ass off.
oh wells,
i'm still glad i watched CARS.
-laughs.

spent the first half of the day slacking,
and resting at home.
went out for movie,
spent the other half of my day laughin.
oh gawd.
laughter is indeed the best medicine.
my fever is FINALLY subsidin.
-smiles

its 235am.
and i'm hungry.
i'm cravin for maggie mee.
HAHA!

peacock ah,
we should study the world cup thing,
and start plannin our bets.
WE COULD HAVE WON TODAY!
hahahaha.
ok, that's my fault,
so late then tell you.
i was contemplatin if i should bet on your behalf.
100bucks eh.
never mind.
there's still tmr :)

i'm plannin to get a tattoo.
haha, thought of the design,
prolly head down to the tattoo shop and enquire first.
dammit.
ive lost my religion.
ive lost my faith.
i've lost my soul.
(pardon me, this isn't meant to insult anyone who shares the same faith)
that's another story anyway.
interested?
ask me personally, please.

"no matter what i do,
all i think about is you,"
gawd.
wassup with emo songs?
HA!
i won't that won't get me.
once bitten, twice shy
i'll watch my back, chris.
i'll do fine.

project tomorrow.
i better get back on track with school.
i swear i want to score this semester.
gambate!

something for my soul, somewhere

i must be real bored.

1. Last place you've been to:
-upper thomson?

2. You are:
-about a screw popups upside down.

3. They say you are:
-a bimbo! -laughs

4. Yesterday:
-was FATHER'S day. had dinner with my family!

5. Last person who texted you?:
-faz (she told me to take care -smiles)

6. First name in your received calls?:
-zhou? he owes me a movie -laughs

7. How old are you?:
-turning nineteen in two months.

8. What song are u listening to?:
-sunrise, norah jones

9. Last thing you bought for yourself:
-peelfresh mango juice

10. I want to:
-try skydiving

11. I really like:
-wedding gowns, pretty pretty!

12. I have a crush on:
-chipmunks and stitch

13. I really hate:
-pop-ups, viruses and big fat liars

14. My last guilty pleasure was with:
-a bar of chocolate, from america

***** HAVE YOU EVER ******

1. Cried at school?:
-yeah, when i get emotional, i cry. especially during my graduation in secondary school.

2. Ran away?:
-more like being chased out of home huh? trust me, the feelin sucks to be homeless.

3. Broken someone's heart?:
-uh, i guess so. i'm sorry if i did

4. Had ur heart broken?:
-duh uh! i'm only human, then again i say its retribution for question 3

5. Cried when someone died?:
-yea, i cried buckets

6. Broken a bone?:
-what do you expect out of an accident prone me?

PART ONE...

1. Sit by the phone waiting for a call all night?:
-sadly, yes. but the phone never rang..

2. chat online?:
-erm, what do you think?

3. Save emails?:
-yea, all the silly emails from my bestie. what do you expect when she's like a few oceans away?

4. Wish u were someone else?:
-more like, "how nice if i'm a wee bit taller..."

5. Cry in front of friends:
-yeah. there's an emotional side of me. don't hold back your tears.

PART TWO...

1.do you get jealous easily?:
-its only natural i guess..

2. What have u been doing these past few Days?:
-read my previous posts please

3. What are you thinking about now?:
-should i watch CARS or silent hill?

4.what did you do last night?:
-played games, MSN, watched soccer

5.what did you last say to a friend last night?:
-"aye, you want to bet this match not?"

6. When will you marry?:
-when i find a man who loves me, and be so madly in love, nothing can tear us apart. HAHA

7.When did u last receive a gift?:
-recently. CHIPMUNK, peacock rocks!

8. When did you last have an alcoholic drink?:
-HA! everyday last week!

9. What was your greatest bet ever made?:
-erh, i'm not THAT much of a risk taker eh

10. Is all fair in love?:
-that's what i say. but, love's a funny thing, when you love, you love. why do people complicate the word love? come on, just LOVE :)

that was fun.
haven't done such stuff for a long while.
HA!
enjoy your last week of hols :)
i'll blog tonight.

something for my soul, somewhere

Sunday, June 18, 2006

we went to the ARCADE today :)
what's new?!
LPC loves arcade-ing
-laughs

we spent lotsa money on the turning machines.
guess what?
we used only $1 to turn a $2 machine.
HA!
and now we have 3 full sets of stitch keychains.
-laughs

we had budget dinner,
so budget until we had to stand and eat.
but we ate a hell lot.
went to B&J for dessert.
had lotsa chocolate icecream.
(sugar/choco-rush #1)

we lepaked there for a long while,
deciding where we should go on our trip.
from m'sia to batam to thailand.
gawwwwd.
we're a bunch of people with MANY ideas.

ok, so we decided to head to batam.
somehow, only purple, cock and i can make it.
so we planned TWO trips.
miss mazda: pls come for the first trip!
we promise we'll be back at night!
-smiles

headed back to the arcade cause there's a new GIANT machine,
and purple's addicted to it.
its a GIANT machine with a hell lot of sweets.
ok peacock the arcade master tried to get elmo and chipmunk.
-yay!

so, at the end of the day,
we spend LOTSA money,
caught ELMO and CHIPMUNK,

(i took home mr chipmunk! -laughs)
isn't mr chipmunk adorable?
oh, we have at least 1KG of SWEETS.
dammit.
pure sugar-rush, again.
(sugar rush #2)

miss jelly's leaving for m'sia tonight
-pouts
come back quick k?
I'M GOIN TO MISS YOU LIKE MAD.
its gonna be a long week w/o you.
boohoo!
-whines..

chris lent me his precious HOOBOO!
i'll take good care of it!
-smiles

one more week of holidays,
and its back to hell.
-growls.
i don't want to go back to school!
-BIG SIGH!

fazzie rocks my socks.
HAHAHAHA!
ok, i'm high.
here's some photos taken on wednesday night :)

at gen's house,
after like a long while of preparin for the night.

gen, pam, faz, amanda.
omg, i swear we were HIGH.
we were dancing like total idiots!

more photos?
let's take a look at some very ancient photos.
and here's what i managed to dig out...

this was my xmas wish for yr 2005:
PUMA UNDERWEAR
-laughs

your little friend misses you!

its damn good, seriously!

omg. how long was this?
let's see, i think its before FOC..

yeah, another ancient photo.
ting, emily, pam :)

oh gawd. i miss that dog.
that reminds me.
i saw one that looks like him at bukit panjang plaza.
so darn adorable! -evil laugh

that's PEACOCK.
really very cock. HAHAHAHA!

another very ancient picture.
pam, pei, deb, jelly.

that's fazzie and me.
we must take more stupid shots, ok?!

ok, that's enough photos for now,
its fun diggin out old photos.
it makes me smile :)

how about a quote before i leave:
"today is this week, and tomorrow's next week!"
JELLY, 2006

fuck pop-ups.
it makes my lappie lag like fuck.
-growls.

something for my soul, somewhere

Friday, June 16, 2006

i'm back from chalet :)

chalet's fun!
lotsa food and lotsa booze!
just the way i like it!
many many things happened at the chalet.
errh,
to simply put it,
i went to hell.

now, don't talk about the above.
went to zouk with GEN and FAZ
met alot of people,
all fazzie and gen's friends.
and we all love amanda!
don't we??

then i got a wee bit high.
must be the jugs of long island tea.
hahahaha.
started dancin my ass off,
and started talkin rubbish.
-laughs

at p'cock's house now.
its like an illegal bettin room here.
checkin livescores and erm,
hopin that we make money.
HAHA!
go come on guys.
ENGLAND,
PLEASE WIN!!!

i'm makin them watch hard gay now.
come on everyone.
HOOOOO!
-laughs
and we're bringin in the boooooze!
living the life of drunk asses right now.
hahahaha!

alright, photo time.
i suddenly don't have any inspiration to blog.
let the photos do all the talkin
:)

SESAME STREET comes to downtown east!
they've got many supportors!

drunk asses!
silly best friend! >.<
we obviously had TOO much of booze that night.
"gao de" is damn red.
-laughs

BBQ night - we had more to drink.
and obviously, ahqiang got high first.
WHEEEEE!

LPC without ahqiang.
he went pah-tor-ing lehs! hahahaha

we love marshmellows.
spread the love.
bbq more marshmarsh for everyone!

see all the red faces?
we haven't seen each other in a long while,
that explains the smiles and all the retard things we did.

we love each other so darn much! :)

my pretty little girls :)

prometheus two rocks my socks!

FINALLY!
a tattoo.
who says i can't get one?
-laughs

miss mazda is sick :(
get well soon k?
lovelove!

ok, blogger's laggin terribly.
purple and cock's playin gunbound.
ahqiang's readin comics.
and i'm fallin asleep.
MAHJONG PLEASE.
-growls.

oh yes.
ENGLAND WON!
-laughs
money come come!
now for the next match!
:)
go paraguay!

something for my soul, somewhere

Thursday, June 08, 2006

absolutely terrible morning.

had a fm test today.
spent nearly the whole night studyin and finishin my tutorials.
i knew i was runnin a temperature (38.3 degrees)
but i had to finish studyin.
headed to bed around 3.
but i knew there's something i didn't study,
so i woke up again.

overslept this mornin, rushed to class.
paper's a disaster.
i know i studied.
but i don't know why i just couldn't write..
its a fucked up feelin.
and i hate it.

workin till one today at boat quay.
insufficient manpower.
-growls
i have lots of assignments due.
and i'm so darn tired.
i swear i sleep more on bus rides than on my own bed.
oh gawd.

i miss my lpc.
we're finally meetin up on friday.
-yay!
pei, let's get drunk okies?
-laughs
and mr chua weiqiang.
you better come.
i miss you can?
stupid best friend.

havin prometheus 2 chalet on monday.
i'm lookin forward to it.
cause its gonna be a prometheus gl gathering.
i miss all you little folks!
kawabanga! -laughs

oh yes. i didn't mention that i'm very whinny for the past few days.
and it sucks.
but i'm not gonna stop whinning.
-laughs

pris sent me a song in 3 different versions.
english, korean and piano.
the mtv made us cry.
-laughs

if i heard the song a week back,
i probably would cry harder.
but now, i don't think it means anythin, anymore.

read it for yourself :)

Kiss - Because i'm a girl

I just can't understand the ways,
of all the men and their mistakes.
You give them all your heart,
and then they rip it all away.

You told me how much you loved me,
and how our love was meant to be.
And I believed in you,
I thought that you would set me free.

You should've just told me the truth,
That I wasn't the girl for you.
Still I didn't have a clue,
so my heart depended on you.

Although I willl say I hate u now,
although I will shout and curse you out.
I'll always have love for you,
because I am a girl.

understand?
i understooded.
-laughs

something for my soul, somewhere

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

gawd. right now, mega bites is like heaven.
its godsent.
right faz??
*laughs*
he makes the perfect eyecandy.
the perfect candy to put your day right on track,
the perfect source of energy for every weak soul.
the perfect pasta boy!
i don't care how many piercings you have,
or how big your tattoo is.
you're just so damn cute.
and you make the perfect eye candy,
and it stops there.

the difference with eye candies is obvious.
there's no string attached.
you just admire him, and that's it.
case closed.
and that's what i like doing.
*laughs*

wazzie and i went mad yesterday.
took so many pictures in the toilet.
marina square has got nice toilets, cause they have BIG mirrors.
haha, self obsession shots...

topshop was having a mini sale,
maybe its because i've got vouchers.
i absolutely love shopping.
and gss makes me smile.

i'm studying in school now.
pam and fazzie has been a good girl.
we've been studying.
*laughs*

so yes, that reminds me.
washing machine has a sister.
her sister is called vacuum cleaner.
hahahahaha!

btw, how's the new blogskin?
HAHAHA!

something for my soul, somewhere

Monday, June 05, 2006

this must have been the most fruitful sunday since i-don't-know-when.
i woke at 2.30pm...
(i slept at 5.30am because i got home at 4.20am...)
looked at the huge mess in my room.
i decided...
TODAY's the day.
i MUST clean up my room!

so i spent 6hours cleaning, scrubing, and packing this horrible mess.
i threw out almost half the room.
shifted the furnitures around.
and i'm so proud of myself!
oh yes, thank you daddy for helping me with the heavy furnitures!
:)

daddy, mummy and i went out for dinner.
decided to do a little shopping,
(since its the great singapore sale..)
and here's what we bought.
daddy: a new handphone, some car product, and new shirts
mummy: new handbag
pam: a mop -.-
my dad says with this new mop,
i'll help with the chores.
this is so unfair!!!!

ok, all's fair.. all's fair..
i did my shopping yesterday.
bought a hell lot of clothes from esprit, zara and woman's secret.
(3 tops, 1 bikini, and a jumper)
wheeee!
bought a leather bag which cost like 169 bucks.
THANK GOD for sales..
i got it at half price.
*smiles happily*
thank you mummy!

mama and i went for manicure together.
my treat.
sometimes, i gotta make my mama happy too.
though she pisses me off nearly half the time,
i'm still thankful i have a mum.

work was fun for the past few days.
esp last night, when i finally saw familiar faces.
*laughs*
there was this particular customer that i thought looked familiar.
but i just couldn't figure who he is.
(same for him i guess)
he asked joeann for my name,
and she's like, "why?!"

ok, to cut the long story short,
he's AMOS TAN -.-
(len's buddy)
oh yes, having your birthday party at eskibar is a good choice.
make sure you invite me!
:)

*growls*
the only reason why i got home so late was because,
some buggers refused to leave,
even when we're closed.
so we waited till like 3.3o for them to leave.
cleaned up and...
*growls*

okiess. its getting late.
i should get some rest.
*smiles at my very, very, very neat room...*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAZZZIEEE!
i love ya many, many, many kitkat chunkies!
thank you for a whole year of joy!
may your 18th birthday be a happy one!
this year, i want you to be stronger than you were before.
no more tears k?
just lots of smiles, and trust me, everyone loves you!
we're all gonna catch you when you fall!
anyways, now that you're 18..
its time to club our ass off!
happy birthday you silly dong!
looooooove ya so much, cause you're the sweetest!

something for my soul, somewhere

Saturday, June 03, 2006

during SAM today,
pei says that i'm sociable.
every 10 steps i take,
i must wave and say hi.

my walk from blk 52 to the bus stop was a long walk.
i said hi to say many people..
from classmates to freshies to foc-ians to divers to lepak core.
gawd, i love my lepak core :) s
aw zhiyong, took 75 with him to holland v.
he made me really excited abt my next few dive trips.
let's go diving sooooon!
dang! i'm in need of donations!

i had fun at work today.
i love working with ah long (aka ah nong)
he entertains me with his diving trip experiences and he showed tons of photos that he took! and he even gave me lychee to eat!
*laughs*
ting bought duck rice for dinner.
ate with ah nong.
his diving stories will never end!

i love working with peacock too!
he keeps scratching his head.
i keep stressing him for orders and rushin him to take glass and yadah.
and he bullies me by askin me to take ice.
hahaha!
he made some weird drink today for us to share.
according to mr barboy, its coke and sprite.
to me, it tasted more like coke and gingerale.
*laughs*

oh yes, there was this guy who came in to look for peacock.
wooots! got supporter ehs!
haha, ended up making friends with him.
he's pretty cute i must say.
i think i said that to peacock at least 20000 times.
oh wells. he's a rich brat.
once again... not my cup of tea.
*growls*

worked till 11 today, and eski 3 was damn crowded.
i was running in and out every minute.
looking at all of them,
i decided to buy supper for them.
so went to 7-11, bought a pau and lo mai kai for jo and ahnong.
and guess what?
i saw chris black and xing!

bought a bottle of heineken,
lepaked and talked to them for half an hour.
delivered my food to them, and went back to lepak.
headed home in my mum's car.

i'm glad i cleared everything.
like i said, we're still friends.
"if we're meant to be, we're meant to be. if we're not, then fuck it."
hahaha, yesyes, don't blame yourself.
we're both at fault.
now, i just want you to be happy everyday!
your days ahead will be a living hell.
but, remain happy yeah? :)
suddenly, i'm overwhelmed with happiness.
maybe its because the air's finally cleared.
don't worry about me.
i'm a strong girl.
i'll brave this storm on my own :)

money, money, money.
i need money for diving.
i need money for GSS!
donations anyone?
:)

i love this quote!

"Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction."
Antoine de Saint-Exupery

something for my soul, somewhere

Friday, June 02, 2006

pardon the post in the morning.
emotion outburst.
had gastric attack the whole night,
didn't manage to sleep,
(and together with other contributing factors..)
i got a little too emo.
*laughs*

i choose to believe that i'm okay.
what's mine will be mine,
what's not, shall leave.
pretty pointless to cling on to emptiness.
i thought about it the whole day,
and i figured that it wasn't right to get angry.
i'm such a petty freak huh?

to be honest,
i don't know how to react when i see you.
i don't know if i should run, or hide or smile?
somehow, runnin sounds easier.
i'm well known for being an escapist.
maybe someday, things will get better.
oh wells.
i just wish things didn't turn out this way...

right, the day didn't start out nicely for me.
i didn't sleep last night, (like how can i?)
had gastric almost the whole day.
and it hurts like fuck now.
boo.
as a result,
i didn't have any appetite,
and i didn't eat anything for the whole day.
hee.

went to the wrong outlet for work.
i'm such a dong!
its HOLLAND V tmr, not today.
so, now because of eski,
i'm famous :)
iweekly came to interview.
and my boss threw me into jordan river.
i became the part-time model-cum-spokesperson for eskibar tonight.
SO BUY IWEEKLY NEXT WEEK K?
(fann wong's on the cover i think)
*laughs*

something for my soul, somewhere

Thursday, June 01, 2006

had terrbile gastric last night.
i wish the world would stop moving.
it hurt so badly,
and it added on to the tears that wasn't meant to be shed.

thank you for last night's call.
it came late,
it came hard,
it came with a pocket full of knives.
but, i'm glad it came,
though i dreaded everybit of the conversation.

for the first time,
i felt like an idiot,
a total fool.
and no, i won't blame you,
instead, i'm going to shoulder all the blame.
why?
its just me and my thoughts of a happy ending.
gawd.
i must have been in denial for the longest time.
my ice cream truck left,
and left me behind.
i should just pack and leave.

i won't bother anymore.
i may have fallen,
but it doesn't mean i won't stand up again someday.
don't pity me.
i'll probably hate you more.

every mistake i make,
makes me a stronger person.
and this mistake taught me a hell of a lesson.
i will not bother anymore..
never will, never anymore.
never will i trap myself in the fuckin four letter word.
it ain't going to make me shed another fuckin tear,
i promise i will never cry again.
and i broke my promise last night,
for that, i hate you.

something for my soul, somewhere